Today my dad (whom I call Papasan - and yes, I realize it's a type of wicker chair like thing you get from Pier 1 - stop judging!) is 72 years old. I know we're not supposed to have favourites, but he's mine. My mother and I have always had a rocky relationship, and my father was the calm in the storm. Not that he was around much when I was growing up - he worked 7 days a week to keep a roof over our heads, food on the table and clothes on our back. It was my mother who shuttled me (and my sister before me) to practices and lessons.
And yet, my father, the quiet man that he is, the enigma that he was, always had a presence in the house. Even if he was just sleeping on the couch after getting home from a 15 hour day. Over the years, our relationship grew and I pried at the layers of privacy that he wrapped around himself. We would talk about politics, about my school work (I went back to school at 25 and stayed with my parents for two years), about family history, my mom's hormonal craziness, about how I'm the favourite daughter. It's totally true, you know. I am the favourite.
I saw my father smile more, and when I moved an hour away and would call (though not as often as I should) he stayed on the phone longer, telling me about his day, and what he'd seen in the newspaper that might interest me. And I like being the type of daughter that doesn't just call when she needs something, or to complain about her own life. I want to know more about my father, to create memories of him that I will be able to take out and look at and smile when he's no longer here.
My father is the man I measured all prospective partners to - not in the Daddy's Girl kind of way. I wanted to find someone who was compassionate, worked hard, was knowlegeable and loved me. My husband is not like my father in most ways - but he does have all of those traits. One of these days I'll remember to thank him for showing me what I deserved in a partner. Although, with his gruff nature, he'll probably just shoo me away, and tell me to stop being so foolish. But I'll see the thank you in his eyes, and I'll know that he appreciates it.
So, to my Papasan... Happy Birthday to You! May you have many more, and may I still continue to be your favourite daughter. ♥

